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| 03:35am 03/08/2007 |
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Hello out there! Does anyone still use this thing?
Life is spectacular.. and by that I mean if I was still in infancy it would be.
I'm bored out of my mind lately, can you tell? I'm taking up lj at 3:30 am. whatever, thats what time the clubs let out anyway! All the cool kids will just think I went to a different club.
CLUB INTERWEB FTW!
;] <3
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| 12:14am 11/01/2007 |
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are you fucking serious?
what up lj? |
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| 08:57pm 28/08/2006 |
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i could be doing homework instead of arguing i guess..
why does everything suck all at once? |
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| 05:53pm 12/07/2006 |
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kim is so scandalous. |
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| 08:58pm 08/07/2006 |
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feeling a little better emotionally.. physically exhausted from partying so much. UFC FIGHT TONIGHT.old friends, new friends, old hook ups. kim and i are sitting on the couch in our bras watching cribs. 2 weeks of this. amazing.
SC2 on xbox later with joe and whoever else shows up.
it was nice to cuddle with someone who geniunly cares about you.
visited my grandmother at hospice today. shes doing well, i held it together when i was there, but fell apart on the lonely drive home. i'll be in new port richey a lot un the upcoming weeks.
my best friend is amazing! |
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| 04:12pm 14/05/2006 |
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i'm not into being miserable anymore. thanks anyway bryan. good luck. |
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| 06:03pm 21/04/2006 |
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most horrible day ever. |
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| 11:40pm 04/04/2006 |
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sigur ros. enough said. |
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| 03:25pm 30/03/2006 |
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i just can't wait for this day to be over. i'm ready to just go to class and fail another test, go to the gym, and go home to sleep. i have tomorrow off, thank god. 5 days in a row at that place is pure hell. standing on my feet for 8 hours isn't the most fun. at least i get some really great stories out of it. you have no idea how precise people are about their lattes. i have this thing, like.. im really stingy at work. if someone asks for extra carmel sauce i charge for it. granted its the way its supposed to be rung up, but some people just dont charge for it. i got the worst attitude from this lady because she couldn't understand why her bill was 30 cents more than it has been "for the last 6 months" is what she said. no way i was backing this one down. i told her she can compare her bills if she wants, but i charged everything correctly, and if she had a problem to call and speak to someone. i just don't get it. people screw my orders up all the time, but never have i ever walked into a fast food restaurant with an attitude, because i'm pretty sure they have no problem tampering with my order.
seriously, just.. for the love of all things good and green, next time you order your white mocha, be flippin amiable. ok? |
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| lets tune out by turning on the radio |
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| 10:38pm 29/03/2006 |
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man. its been a while.
a lot of things have been changing on more of a mental, and physical basis. it's good to finally come back to the realization that the only person you can truely depend on in this lifetime is yourself. i guess to most people that seems kind of solomn and depressing, but it's pretty comforting to me. i swear, sometimes i look back at when i was 16 and wonder how i had so much more direction and ambition then than i do now. i feel like i've kind of given up and just let the demons take over. that really shouldn't be happening at all. i've been so content with finding what i need in an instable relationship that i've lost sight of the fact that still remains: i have to be in this body, and thus be myself for the rest of my life. so i guess i might as well recover the wheel and start driving again. i'm not really depressed, just a little sad. i've put a lot into the relationship, A LOT. and for it to just shatter in my hands is so demeaning. i really want nothing more than for it to work. that boy really and truely does make me happy. he really is all i ever look forward to. i honest to god love him more than.. well, anyone-EVER. but if it's not going to work it's not going to work. it sucks that i feel like everytime tension arises i have to grab my keys and leave, but it's just my way of applying pressure to the wound. and the days that pass that we dont see each other is just a fucking scab waiting to be picked, only for it to bleed all over again. fuck. i dont know, i really thought i was going somewhere with this, but the more i picture the face i had once woken up to every morning, the more i feel weak and submissive to him. i know it wont be known for a long while if this is really my forever, but im more than willing to do anything possible to let that be. i have a lot more to say, but it exhausts me and upsets me that i can't just fucking get it right.
so, if i could say one thing to sum up how i feel about this: i really wish you did dedicate more time, effort, and love into what we've developed these past 5 months. you're my world, why can't i just be your's as well? |
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| 02:47am 13/12/2005 |
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dear livejournal,
fuck you.
-ashley |
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| 11:56pm 06/12/2005 |
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i still have the most amazing boyfriend ever |
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| 12:46am 02/12/2005 |
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mini me
you complete me |
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| 02:51pm 29/11/2005 |
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mood:  crushed
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llss;
</3's are for quitters. |
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| 10:45am 22/11/2005 |
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BRYAN.
YOU
SHOULD
LEAVE
WORK
AND
TAKE
ME
SHOPPING.
haha. |
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| yea.... |
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| 07:19am 21/11/2005 |
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my boyfriend is pretty much better than your boyfriend.
nuff said. |
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| 05:49am 20/11/2005 |
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hHAHAHAHAHAHAH unfuckingbelievable.
i just stared at my cats anus for 5 minutes.
marijuana cigarettes |
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| 02:22pm 29/10/2005 |
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fucking wasted last night. blech.
yip yip tonight! |
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| 04:25pm 27/10/2005 |
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blahhhh |
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