we always speak when youre so far away and im sitting right here.

wow has it been forever or what?

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 07:37:38 GMT

Hello out there! Does anyone still use this thing?

Life is spectacular.. and by that I mean if I was still in infancy it would be.

I'm bored out of my mind lately, can you tell? I'm taking up lj at 3:30 am. whatever, thats what time the clubs let out anyway! All the cool kids will just think I went to a different club.

CLUB INTERWEB FTW!

;] <3

ash.

...

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 04:14:30 GMT

are you fucking serious?

what up lj?

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 00:58:01 GMT

i could be doing homework instead of arguing i guess..

why does everything suck all at once?

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 21:54:12 GMT

kim is so scandalous.

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 01:02:58 GMT

feeling a little better emotionally.. physically exhausted from partying so much. UFC FIGHT TONIGHT.old friends, new friends, old hook ups. kim and i are sitting on the couch in our bras watching cribs. 2 weeks of this. amazing.

SC2 on xbox later with joe and whoever else shows up.

it was nice to cuddle with someone who geniunly cares about you.

visited my grandmother at hospice today. shes doing well, i held it together when i was there, but fell apart on the lonely drive home. i'll be in new port richey a lot un the upcoming weeks.

my best friend is amazing!

Sun, 14 May 2006 20:13:09 GMT

i'm not into being miserable anymore. thanks anyway bryan. good luck.

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 22:04:08 GMT

most horrible day ever.

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 03:40:14 GMT

sigur ros. enough said.

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 20:33:48 GMT

i just can't wait for this day to be over. i'm ready to just go to class and fail another test, go to the gym, and go home to sleep. i have tomorrow off, thank god. 5 days in a row at that place is pure hell. standing on my feet for 8 hours isn't the most fun. at least i get some really great stories out of it. you have no idea how precise people are about their lattes. i have this thing, like.. im really stingy at work. if someone asks for extra carmel sauce i charge for it. granted its the way its supposed to be rung up, but some people just dont charge for it. i got the worst attitude from this lady because she couldn't understand why her bill was 30 cents more than it has been "for the last 6 months" is what she said. no way i was backing this one down. i told her she can compare her bills if she wants, but i charged everything correctly, and if she had a problem to call and speak to someone. i just don't get it. people screw my orders up all the time, but never have i ever walked into a fast food restaurant with an attitude, because i'm pretty sure they have no problem tampering with my order.

seriously, just.. for the love of all things good and green, next time you order your white mocha, be flippin amiable. ok?

lets tune out by turning on the radio

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 04:04:24 GMT

man. its been a while.

a lot of things have been changing on more of a mental, and physical basis. it's good to finally come back to the realization that the only person you can truely depend on in this lifetime is yourself. i guess to most people that seems kind of solomn and depressing, but it's pretty comforting to me. i swear, sometimes i look back at when i was 16 and wonder how i had so much more direction and ambition then than i do now. i feel like i've kind of given up and just let the demons take over. that really shouldn't be happening at all. i've been so content with finding what i need in an instable relationship that i've lost sight of the fact that still remains: i have to be in this body, and thus be myself for the rest of my life. so i guess i might as well recover the wheel and start driving again. i'm not really depressed, just a little sad. i've put a lot into the relationship, A LOT. and for it to just shatter in my hands is so demeaning. i really want nothing more than for it to work. that boy really and truely does make me happy. he really is all i ever look forward to. i honest to god love him more than.. well, anyone-EVER. but if it's not going to work it's not going to work. it sucks that i feel like everytime tension arises i have to grab my keys and leave, but it's just my way of applying pressure to the wound. and the days that pass that we dont see each other is just a fucking scab waiting to be picked, only for it to bleed all over again. fuck. i dont know, i really thought i was going somewhere with this, but the more i picture the face i had once woken up to every morning, the more i feel weak and submissive to him. i know it wont be known for a long while if this is really my forever, but im more than willing to do anything possible to let that be. i have a lot more to say, but it exhausts me and upsets me that i can't just fucking get it right.

so, if i could say one thing to sum up how i feel about this: i really wish you did dedicate more time, effort, and love into what we've developed these past 5 months. you're my world, why can't i just be your's as well?

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 07:47:35 GMT

dear livejournal,

fuck you.

-ashley

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 04:57:21 GMT

i still have the most amazing boyfriend ever

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 05:47:14 GMT

mini me

you complete me

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 19:53:27 GMT

llss;

</3's are for quitters.

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 15:46:52 GMT

BRYAN.

YOU

SHOULD

LEAVE

WORK

AND

TAKE

ME

SHOPPING.

haha.

yea....

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 12:20:41 GMT

my boyfriend is pretty much better than your boyfriend.

nuff said.

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 05:50:23 GMT

hHAHAHAHAHAHAH unfuckingbelievable.

i just stared at my cats anus for 5 minutes.

~~marijuana cigarettes~~

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 18:23:02 GMT

fucking wasted last night. blech.

yip yip tonight!

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 21:41:36 GMT

First Name:	Ashley
Middle Name:	Rae
Birthday:	9.11
Eyes:	Brown
Hair:	Brown
Fav color:	Green
Day/Night:	Night
Fave Food:	Thai
*FRIENDS AND LIFE*
Do you ever wish you had another name?	Nah
Do you like anyone?	Yea
Which one of your friends acts the most like you?	CARLY
Who's the loudest?	CARLY
Who have you known the longest of your friends?	Monica
Who's the shyest:	Monica
Are you close to any family members?	my brother and sister
When you cried the most:	September 2004.
What's the best feeling in the world:	Sleep
Worst Feeling:	Awake
*FINISH EACH SENTENCE:*
Let's walk on the:	beach
Let's run through:	the sand
Let's look at the:	stars
What a nice:	gay
Where did all the:	gas masks go
Why can't you:	get your foot out from underneath that rock; the tide is rising.
Silly, little:	bear
Tell me:	something good.
*HAVE YOU:*
Ran away from home:	no
Pictured your crush naked:	yes
Skipped school:	yes
Broken someone's heart:	yes
Been in love:	yes
Cried when someone died:	yes
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:	no
Done something embarrassing:	not really. my sister farted really loud at marble slab and this guy thought it was me
Done a drug:	yes
Cried in school:	yes
*RANDOM*
Your Good Luck Charm:	my liver
Person You Hate Most:	n/a
Best Thing That Has Happened:	i slept for like 13 hours today. haha
Ice Cream:	chocolate peanut butter!
WHO Makes you laugh the most:	allen
Makes you smile:	rick
Has A Crush On You:	a lot of people. im kind of important.
Do You Have A Crush On Someone:	yessss
*HAVE YOU EVER*
Fallen for your best friend?:	yes
Made out with JUST a friend?:	yes
Kissed two people in the same day?:	yes
Had sex with two different people in the same day?:	no
Been rejected: .	yes
Been in love?:	yes
Been used?:	yes
Done something you regret?:	yeah i guess so
Cheated on someone?:	no
Been called a tease:	yes
*WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...*
You touched?:	christian h. christ.
You talked to on the phone?:	mr. bentley.
You hugged?:	christian. h christ.
You instant messaged?:	mr. bentley
You kissed?:	hmmm. kenny i think
You yelled at?:	tyler
Who text messaged you?:	nickie
Who broke your heart?:	im fucking tough
Who told you they loved you?:	eeeee ;]
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 21:25:11 GMT

blahhhh

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 19:42:04 GMT

haha. wooo!

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 15:16:26 GMT

oh god. don't delete me from your livejournal.

the highlight of your day must be writing about the new laguna beach. grow up.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 04:29:10 GMT

I'm a hard rock casino whore.

I'm glad i'm not insanely bitter about my life.

My uncles house is too big.

NYC with Carly in 3 months.

I love Amanda Kalinoski.

New years will suck without you, Boise. I'm sorry you're so soft.

Katy Hooks should give me a call sometime.

WELCOME, Wilma. YOU'VE GOT MAIL.

[edit] ass whooping. haha. okay yea, that would never happen.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:23:17 GMT

GWAR WAS FUCKING BRUTAL!

sleepy.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 08:36:13 GMT

square one.